Brave post and great replies.
I think Mike nailed it on the head.
To be clear, I have never been to AA or done the steps, but I have done the work to get to a place where I have admitted I am addicted to alcohol and my defects of character and asked the universe to help me, and trust the universe that if I do my part, it will do its.
My part -- to do the next right thing with love. You see, I believe that God is love literally. The love within us, god, when we act with love, god. When we act with fear, not god.
And if I do that -- peace, happiness, love.
When I don't, anger, fear, unhappiness.
So that is the way I see it.
This is why I think if you are doing AA, working the steps is the key.
The universe does have your back, its just realising that and trusting that that we need to learn.
Here is to learning and loving, which for us can only be done sober!