thanks for that red78 i just dont know what to do i have thought of that possability of him resenting me for it and truely wat kind of relatioship is it if i feel the need to test him everyday to know he is keeping his word. there is part of me that wishes i could turn me feeling off for him but thats not going to happen. since i kicked him out on sunday which was 3 nights ago i have only seen him once and that was for 5 mins but we have spoken everyday on the phone going over and over the fight that we have and how his drinking has been such a big problem plus its the only problem that we have ever had. i just wish i wd know wat the right choice is to do im thinking about making sure that i dont have anymore face to face contact with him for at least 5 more days then see how i feel