Originally Posted by
AlericB 
A fairly random thought came to mind which is that while I have chosen abstinence I don't think I've ever thought "I really want to be abstinent" just as I've never thought "I really want to moderate" or "I really want to drink recklessly' even when I was doing so.
Does anyone really think like that? Don't we rather all just think "I really want to be happy" and then decide on our drinking option in the light of that?
Aleric,
Ja, i never thought" i really wantto be abstinent", but i sure thought "i so wantthis **** out of my life" and ' i want to be sober more than anything".
you may find it odd, but the thought of wanting to be happy never entered into it.
you can and might now argue or suggest or ask why i would want to be sober if i didn't ultimately expect it to make me happier than i was....but really, that is a circular argument going nowhere.
happiness has never been my number one goal, not in quitting nor now, years later.
so no, we don't rather all just think one thing.