Thanks for the replies. I feel so overwhelmed at times. Feel I'm in this by myself often. I have little support around me for sobriety (SR only). Surrounded by people but feel alone. Everything left up to me. Then it comes crashing down in a wave and I am angry at it all. Man I need this to pass. I was doing so well. Now I am back to the beginning and having a hard time gaining traction again. And THAT makes me angry.
Think it is time to seek help with trying to understand this. Have a Dr appointment next week and will ask for recommendation for therapist that specialize in alcohol addiction.