I will not try to stir up anything but will share my experience. I have had periods where I can in fact cut down my drinking to within national health guidelines . However, the mental calisthenics and obsession remain. I meticulously plan the time of my next drink and what I will drink Finally, I found the mornings were just as bad with brain fog and regret and utter anguish. I attribute this to long term effects of drinking on my brain. The only way to combat this is to quit entirely.
Alcohol is a horrible drug.
Have a good day.