I can't lie. I am struggling. But I'm also trying to stay focused and be smart.
Many people have questioned why I care so deeply for only been seeing him for a short amount of time. I don't know if I have a reasonable answer for that, at least not one that won't be judged harshly.
I care about him because of the way he looks at me. He looks at me like I'm the most beautiful girl in the world. He looks at me with so much hope, like I really am all the wonderful things he says I am.
I did have hope that something new with someone who is seemingly so great was going to be fun and magical. And then it wasn't. And it's the hardest break up ever because I didn't know I'd have to.