Hello and welcome to SR and to life with an active alcoholic.
I hope you are reading around the F&F forum and start realizing that it is not going to get better.
You are only responsible for yourself, not for someone else's (very bad)decisions.
Life is short, do you really want to get stuck on that crazy merry go round of alcoholic binges, drama, rehab and regrets???
Do you really want to volunteer yourself for martyrdom?
If you had a daughter is it the kind of relationship you would like her to be in?