ScottFromWI

I would say the wheels fell off a long time ago and you are down to the frame with the engine dragging on the road to be honest Drillbit. As Carl mentions, you've been here many times before and pretty much posted the same thing- that things are out of control but that you have a plan to "taper down" and then get serious about it. Go back and look at your post history if you need a reminder.

I don't say that to shame you or single you out, most of us have been there and done the same thing. I do say it to point out that if you really want change you will have to take serious action. Tapering down is not going to work, it didn't work before and it won't work now.

In regards to your health concerns, you also mention that you I "just can't deal with it right now". When do you plan on dealing with it then? Again - not calling you out but trying to point out that you are listening to your addiction, not the part of your mind that knows the right thing to do.