Welcome, NG - it's so good to have you join us.
It's still early days for you - be patient with yourself. It's a huge adjustment we are making. I was completely dependent on it when I quit - drinking all day. I was exhausted in those first few weeks without it. I know what you mean about the self-pity & anger - but you'll come to realize this is a wonderful gift you're giving yourself. Getting our freedom back is a beautiful thing. Be proud of yourself.