"No one is coming to save me."
You're right on about that. I have found a lot of comfort in the Rational Recovery direction, namely "Rational Recovery does not regard alcoholism as a disease, but rather a voluntary behavior." Reading about RR has added a new dimension to my life where I no longer feel powerless, that my actions are up to me to choose.
I hope you can stay strong. It feels so good to get sober time in my life. Things do get better if you let them. It doesn't make problems go away but you CAN deal with things easier than before.