Day 63 ish
Well I still haven't drank this year. Been over 2 months now, which is the longest since I was a teenager.
Anyway the last two days have been hard. Nearly caved earlier.
I think its because I am at point 'A' in life and want to be at 'B' (have my own business,married, in love, kids etc) and although I'm still not 100% exactly sure how it will turn out, the amount i need to do is colossal!
I just feel flat. I feel like i'm at the bottom of a mountain and i can't even see the top. It's gonna be so much hard work. And at the moment i am struggling for energy.
Maybe I should just go back to my own way of not caring and having a good time and **** life off.
Anyway that's my vent for now.