Had I stayed in my relationship, I'd be going to a bar for "breakfast" today. That would end in a drunken afternoon,for us both, with a 75% chance of her being emotionally abusive. It got to where I couldn't stand to be around her sober and hated it when she was drunk. It took me being sober, more often than not, to realize what was actually going on with us and realizing the only times I would even think about drinking were tied to her and the way I was allowing her words/actions to affect my mental state.