I can relate to your story. I haven’t had a drink for nearly 3 weeks and am struggling to come to terms with the fact I’m an alcoholic.
I would only drink weekends, but I would drink to excess.
I feel nervous about the future at the moment, not sure if I can go without alcohol- which really just confirms that I am an alcoholic!
What doesn’t help is that here in lovely England, we have been snowed in for the last week (this country can’t cope with adverse weather). I’m hoping that once I can get out and about again, I can focus on anything other than needing a drink.
Good luck and you’re not alone.