Newcomer for the nth time.
I have been trying to get and stay sober for 4 years. 6 months is the longest stretch I had in 2017. I was drinking once a month from September on, but now it’s every 2/3 weeks. I am not able to leave my house due to agoraphobia and being a caregiver. I genuinely think I hate alcohol but I’m still having the it could make me feel good like it used to fantasy. I know that avoidance and relaxation aren’t the same but I keep the same old habits of watching videos all day and avoiding cleaning when I have free time. I have an easier time staying sober when I visit this site. I hope to stay for good this time.