Oh geez, 4myboys, I feel for you. Your job and road ahead of you is not easy, but you are exactly right, you will find a way to make it through, you do not have an option. The slowness got to me also. Sending you virtual support. And parenting props for showing the boys you are the parent they can count on to stand up for them. Even if it is something small, can you do something for yourself today? Nails, coffee with a friend, a walk ... heck even a nap?!
GM