8 months today.
It's the longest I've gone without since I was a teen.
How I feel about myself is night to day. From despair and loathing to pride of accomplishment.
As time continues to mount, so does my determination to remain sober.
8 months is huge and I will protect that accomplishment. Another thing keeping me sober is the fact that if I ever smoke again, I would be right back where I started from.
Have I thought about it? Sure, I get the occasional whisper of "oh, just this one time", but I know it will not stay with just one time.
I like where I am today compared to 1 year ago.
My health has improved and my bank balance has grown. But best of all is I have stopped hating myself.
So whenever the thought of using creeps up, I think of all these things and how far I have come.
It was worth the struggle. So worth it.
The inner battle is gone and that makes life so much easier.
I hope everyone can find the peace that sobriety brings.