Thank you so much for sharing this. This hit my heart in a heavy and happy way. Thank your higher power for stepping in and being there when you wanted to go back to drinking. And thank yourself too. You have worked so hard, and this is something to show for it. Be proud, you were there for him. He needed you and you were actually there! And you still are. You are such a great mother, I can tell through your writing the heart you have. From one parent to another, good luck on the journey of parenthood. It is rough but every second is worth it to see their smile and hear "I love you mama" or when they become a toddler, "mama can we cuddle tonight" the love between a mother and her child is so beautiful.