Two years sober is such an accomplishment. Thank you for sharing, always inspired by that kind of strength.
I too have very negative memories of being drunk/hungover with my son. Days I couldn't get out of bed to take him to the park b/c I was so hungover. Nights I avoided him and snuck nips from the bottle all night - as if he wouldn't come to know that.
I know I've caused him pain and anxiety that was undeserved. But I also know I can't do anything about those days so I try not to dwell in them. We are who we are.
There is much life ahead. I hope you are able to reconcile with your daughter. No matter how it goes, I'm sure you are in a place now that you could not be if you were still giving in to the poison.
Thank you for sharing. Sending you strength and love.