Glad you’re back Toni!
Day four was about as far as I could go for the last ten years. One time I went a month, one time 16 days. That’s since 2008. I had countless day ones and seemed to fail on day four over and over again. It was feb 2017 the last time I even made it to a day four. I think that was the time my body started to feel better and my brain somehow convinced me my drunken life wasn’t that bad.
Today I have 34 days, and with the help of SR and AA, I feel the will to keep going one day at a time.
You got this! I believe in you.