I read the messages here for such a long time without posting, I also had a lot of day ones during those times. I started posting and have found this site an invaluable part of my recovery. I have found people I can laugh, cry and vent with who get what it is to struggle with alcohol without judgement.
I highly recommend joining the February class group when you feel ready, having a smaller group within this big site also has been a huge help to me.