Noneever your post reminded me of my story so much. I was clean and sober for 13 years and then started drinking as my marriage was falling apart. I really picked up the drinking pace after I was divorced and for the next 8 years as I tried controlling it in all the ways we all have tried. During that time all of the "not yets" started to happen to me. When I first came in to recovery and attended meetings, I would hear of things that hadn't happened to me yet. It is so true that our drinking is progressive and it will continue to get worse over time....not better. I'm sorry this happened to you. I'm sorry that so many of us need to have a legal or medical (me) intervention to turn the tide but it is often a blessing in disguise as we are not able on our own. Stay strong!!!