I've tried with everything in me under this long time sober recovered mans guidance to take the 12 steps twice
And I put everything Ive got into that.
I'm still messed up! - I'm obviously doing it wrong!
i don't mean to be glib, but nothing works unless we commit to NOT drinking. that comes with the complete and utter surrender to step ONE.
no matter how hard we work at the steps, we cannot expect some Higher Power to reach down a hand and smote alcohol out of our lives. we can experience a reprieve, and for the obsession to leave us, if we are willing to do WHATEVER IT TAKES to not drink.
honesty
open mindedness
willingness
humility
surrender
a desire to be of good use to others