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Old 02-12-2018, 08:57 AM
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DontRemember
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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Stewey... If you're anything like I was when I joined here, In the years I would drink and post about wanting/trying to stop but, still drank. I hated myself when I wasn't drinking. I hated myself while drinking. I hated myself when I sobered up for drinking again. Looking back it's clear as day to me and was probably clear to everyone BUT me that I simply hated myself and my 'life' I was living. Some of the self hate wasn't even about drinking,but drinking was my form of self hurt/punishment that I imposed on myself. It was an easy 'cop out' instead of finding what/why I hated myself so much. I'm still working through some of that with AA and therapy,but I've stopped the self hurt. Without stopping that I would never be able to live a good and happy life from here forward. Seek some F2F support and find your happiness.
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