I was talking to my friend the other day about the alcoholic drinking/thinking pattern/loop I was stuck in for a while. He was saying how he can sense/see how my thinking has changed so much in the past 9-10 months and it has. I no longer have the constant thoughts of "when,where,how" about my drinking. It's like they've vanished. I know I'll never drink like a normal person so, taking drinking completely out of the picture has really been beneficial for me and my happiness. What's your plan Stew? How about some therapy and AA meetings/step work? Those two helped me a lot.