We are mere hosts...
I just read this in a post by waynetheking - that the disease is relentless until it kills the host.
I really like this analogy. For me staying sober is so much about the language I speak to myself. To consider myself a host of this insidious demon, like bacteria or a virus gives that separation from the cravings and the desires that is important for me. It helps beat back the ambivalence that I think so many of us give into, especially in the early days.
So thank you waynetheking for that phrasing. I'm going to repeat it to myself today when I need to.