I think until I can learn to deal better with emotions I will always struggle.
the great news on that is you dont have to find the way to deal with it on your own- there are people that can help you learn how to deal with it- how to change, there are many recovery programs/plans to look at that can help you. there are also therapists/psychologists to help,too.
i am very greatful to find a recovery program and the people in it that would help me with solutions. i spent quite a few years trying to use my thinking- the thinking that got me drunk- to fix my thinking.
using my thinking never worked good- i had a broken thinkin machine.
but other people- people that had been in my shoes and had found a solution that worked pretty good for them- helped me tremendously.