Just checking in to give you an update. I felt like a punching bag Thursday and today. Nothing was working out. My girlfriend crashed our car, my youngest has been waking up at 5:30 AM every morning for over a week and isn't in the best mood. Had two terrible mornings in court (my job) and every time I'd get on a bicycle -I do pretty much everything by bike- it would rain instantly. Nothing too dramatic now that I read back on it, but it felt dramatic.
So I felt a bit sorry for myself, I felt joyless. I even thought: well, maybe I can never be truly happy again if I cannot ever smoke a joint again. It didn't make me want to smoke, but it sure made me feel flat and a bit sad.
Then I visit this place and read racingthoughts' thread front to back. It's all detox, withdrawl. Again with the universal experience. All the good things will hopefully return, I just need to be patient and think long-term and not short-term.
I needed that!
Have a good weekend everybody.