Good for you for trying to make a change! From reading your story, I can see you try hard to support your family, and they are trying but falling short of being helpful in the ways you need. I think a lot of us can relate to this, which is why we need this forum; only alcoholics can understand the mind of an alcoholic. Maybe you can build up your support system beyond your family? Is there an in-person meeting you can attend? Or even sober friends you can connect/reconnect with to get some outside advice and support?