Thanks lovely people! Yeah, I do not miss hangovers. For me the anxiety was the worse thing. Not only would I feel anxious about the damage I was doing to my liver but also the money I'd spent, how annoyed my partner was with my drinking, how bad my lungs felt because of all the smoking and worrying about whether I'd done anything really stupid that I couldn't remember.
Being hungover and anxious about it is such a terrible feeling. If only I'd stopped sooner so I hadn't gone through it so many times. But, I'm only 30 (young ish? Lol) and I've got the rest of my life to do better ^_^