Thanks everyone for your replies. Atm I am on day 6 and went to a great AA meeting last night. I'm going again tonight as tomorrow is payday and normally the start of another binge. I have a phone number to ring tomorrow afternoon of an AA member who I will make myself accountable. At least I got out and met up with an old friend. Everyone recognises me which is a bit embarassing as I have been in and out for years. Hopefully this time I finally get the program and stop kidding myself.