Hey Girl -
Just wanna say I'm right there with you. This is my second time checking in on this site since my first post like 2 months ago. Still drinking, and feeling just like you - depression, anxiety, and just so sick of feeling chained to drinking. I couldn't tell you the last time I went 3 days in a row without drinking.
I appreciate reading everyone's approach - it is encouraging. I'm hoping to plan each hour I'm not working and just focus on making it through moment by moment. I still don't really feel comfortable going to in person meetings (mostly bc of my job) but I realize I can't quit totally alone. Thinking about going to a therapist or counselor.
I'm over the shame and embarrassment and just utter loss of time to drinking. I'm rooting for you Girl and you are not alone in this!