kayleezen

Hey Mango blast,
Honestly I am struggling. I am meeting with a new temporary sponsor to read my 1st Step tomorrow and I am functioning a lot better in some ways but I am really having a hard time leaving my qualifier.
He's in treatment and I want to let go but the truth is, that is not where my heart is at all. From there I beat myself up and listen to all the negative talk about what a hopeless and miserable life I am destined to have.
Plus I have a teenager who is acting out (normal safe stuff like chores and attitude) but with his Dad trying to take custody from me constantly it feels like I'm going to lose my son.
I have raised him somewhat alone since he was 3.
The contrary action was I got up and went outside
(I live in Los Angeles so always some sun).
I walked to Starbucks and got out of the house, you know? That is a good coping mechanism for me because days before this I could barely get out of bed. I have work now which is a joy because I am a mental health counselor and work with wonderful, insightful teens who appreciate me unlike my son these days.
Thanks so much for asking!