Originally Posted by
Sohard 
Sadly, none of these things cover up your feelings in the same way. Obviously, this is good, you're forced to work through these feelings.
At some point I saw it not in terms of "forced to" as "I get to".
At some point even the alcohol will quit working. It did for me.
Now I get to actually experience life, the bad
and the good. The downs
and the ups. The feelings of sadness, despair and
those of happiness, joy and peace. When I was drinking myself to oblivion I denied myself both the good with the bad, until towards the end I found myself in a very dark, lonely, isolated place where even the alcohol provided no escape from.
You are still very early in this process. You're going to feel like this. Feelings can't hurt you; this too shall pass.