Av not been praying maybe thats why things are so bad ...also been missing meeting this week i know should do the meetings but i feel like i shouldn't speak open up say how am feeling dont want to feel like this again
i cant deal with my emotions at all see my dr on Thursday next week then my psych in march seems like a very long time till i see her maybe i should at lest try to pray tonight i will try and pray but to my higher power and not christian at the moment i feel disconnected from God right now
i see my pastor tomorrow he is a good friend and normally tells it like it is
and normally i listen . if things dont improve soon i dont know what to do but i am going to get music threapy at one of the drop in am a member off and that should help i hope