Day 4. But, I am starting to cave. I even contacted my person to see if they can meet up tomorrow. I know, I know.
To make it even worse or whatever, I pretty much have only one person I get it from. they used to get high quality but normal grade stuff. which was good. The past couple months they are now getting stuff that someone grows for a dispersary, stuff like "kush" lemon something, other names. I dunno. The problem with these things is they are SO strong, even one hit numbs my brain to an unpleasant way. I don't like this concentrated high thc stuff. ugh. so yeah it is clearly a sign from the universe for me to quit. And the last couple days of withdrawal were extra hard from this stuff. I felt SO depressed. I am jus starting to clear a tiny bit and yes I should just keep going. I don't have to meet the dealer tomorrow. I just cannot fathom life without pot after smoking for the last 30 years. I do not know how to sustain the quits. It is so deeply embedded in my way of life.