Sorry that I am late to this thread, GotTheBlues.
It wasn't until the sixth month mark that I even BEGAN to catch a glimpse of the true benefits and blessings of sobriety and recovery.
While integral to the process of recovery, staying sober was only a part of the process. There was a huge amount of introspection and self-reconciliation that needed to take place. That took time and quite a bit of it at that.
Have you considered counselling? Do you practice meditation? Yoga?
Please don't ever give up. Keep at it. Sobriety and recovery will get easier, with time and dedication to the process.