It's pretty rare for someone to beat something like addiction in a week and a couple of days posting on SR - even when they drank again and have not felt the usual euphoria, or even been a little repulsed by it.
Most of us have been there - I was - and, not too long, after I drank again anyway...
My advice is to stick around - there's many years of experience here...you could really learn some useful things Sephgato
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