I just wanted to thank everyone for taking the time to reply. I'm feeling a lot better about things today, and your messages of support have meant a lot.
I'm hanging in there right now, trying to the positive things. Bought myself a heavy punching bag for the basement today, so that's a lot of frustration that's going to be channeled in a different direction.
I'm also seeing the doctor on Friday, to continue with my year-long quest to try and get a decent drug regimen in place. I also start therapy next week, with a therapist who also practices as an addictions counselor.
Anyway, thanks again.