It (alcoholism) is a form of insanity, thus can't be explained logically. Sorry for the pain he caused...as ancoholic myself I need to hear these hard stories as motivation to work on breaking free.
Originally Posted by
Mercedes5555 
Thank you for your response. It is comforting. I can’t sleep and even if I do I dream of him. I do not have any children and that makes me feel so alone. I have been so set on saving my marriage but as the months go on, I feel lost. I look to this forum in hopes others who have survived may give me words of wisdom. I have tried Al-Anon but the members only vent their concerns but do not offer any comments at all. I may misunderstand Al-Anon but I was hoping they would give insight as to what is going on. I am not looking for advise on what to do but I want some explanation of the insanity.