Silentrun, Thanks for your input. Many years ago, I used to blame my past, especially the problems I had to deal with as a child as a reason for my problems. Eventually that gets old and I realized that that gets old and keeps me stuck in the same poor me cycle. I used that for a long time as an excuse to behave the way I did. I try to take responsibility for my actions today. My past has nothing to do with what goes on with me today. Any OCD issues I have today that might stem from problems I had to endure as a kid has nothing to do with the choices I make today. Everybody has baggage from their past. I think everybody has the choice of dragging that baggage around with them or throwing it in the dumpster where it belongs and move on. I think every day we wake up as a new person. John