Originally Posted by
Samartist 
Some of these stories are very inspiring. So I’ve been drinking everyday for about 10 years the longest time I’ve had off is 10 days and that was due to antibiotics and I would smoke weed as a semi-substitute.
I’m not trying to give up entirely at the moment because being honest with myself, I know that’s unrealistic, for now I just want to cut down. So, I’ve said to myself I will have a couple of drinks next Saturday (not get totally wasted). I’ve been sober for three days, this is day four (on two of those days, I smoked a little weed but really not a lot).
I’ve been feeling so strong and fantastic but now - I’ve hit a wall. And I’m just crying for no reason. What do I do!? Is it better to drink today then stop again? Like take it three days at a time to begin with? Or just ride it out? One minute I am fine, next, I feel rage or upset or deflated. It’s such a rollercoaster, I’m not sure what to do. I have so much I want to achieve and I feel like alcohol is just a BOULDER -in the way. I want to reach a point where I can enjoy a drink socially maybe twice a month but not drink at home for no reason but routine. Advice would be so appreciated x
From my personal experience this will not work. I tried and tried and tried to moderate my drinking. It never worked.
Since being sober for quite a while I've done a lot of reflection on those days and I realized it wasn't that I couldn't drink moderately, it was I didn't want to. No alcoholic does.
Sure I could drink moderately for days, even weeks, but I always wanted more. I would go as far as timing my drinks. I could have one beer every 1hr 15 minutes. Sick thinking right? I had so little control over how much I drank that I had to literally time how much I drank.
That was moderating to me. In the end, it didn't work, and if you are an alcoholic like me, it won't work for you.
I wish you the best!