I doubt your romantic life is over wildflower
For years I looked to people to complete me, if not fix me - I was a very needy partner. All my validation was external.
That meant that, even tho I was a good guy, my relationships never lasted long...
or they were doomed from the start because Miss Right was more often than not Miss Right There.
When I got into recovery I hadn't been in relationship for a long time - I was drinking all day everyday - no room for another person in that.
I began to work on myself as the real me began to emerge again.
It took a little while, but I learned I wasn't as bad as my addiction had told me I was and that rather than being terrified of my own company I kinda liked it.
I finally got some internal validation. some peace and some happiness from life - and it wasn't dependent on someone else.
When someone did come along, all that work made all the difference in the relationship I've had since those days - going on 10 years now.
I'm sure there are good things ahead for you too wildflower - but take some time out to focus on you first
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