Hey Samartist , I agree with Scott only because i've tested it myself for years. I would tell myself that I could control it and learn to drink in moderation or drinking only on Sundays. But by the time I figured out that was just not possible I had lost close friends , most people in my family don't talk to me and I've ruined every relationship I've ever been in. Withdraw and depression are very difficult to deal with , i'm sober 4 days now and i'm right there with you on that but it does get better. It all comes down to when you really want to stop , you will always have us here to back you up anytime!