I agree with Dee that IF it was possible to cancel at very little cost then this would be my choice too.
IF however you cannot afford to cancel then a robust plan around recovery/sobriety needs to be developed as soon as possible.
Overall you're right Canuckle - we have to live our life otherwise what's the point of existing. But in deference to Dee's point, life is all about timing too.
Regards,
JT