welcome, Winter Thunder, and congratulations on your ongoing sobriety and coming out from lurking.
I do struggle with guilt, embarrassment, shame and intense regret. I'm hoping that will work itself out in time.
that is a nice hope, and i had that hope, also, when starting on this journey. and then found that it did not work itself out but that i actually had to do some things, fix what i could, make some restitutions, have a bunch of conversations....you've been lurking, so will likely have read about some of the different ways people have addressed these issues, or not.