Your trigger is that you are an alcoholic.
Do you give into it? Seems like you've had more than one Day 5? Once you give in, you make it harder on yourself to not give in the next time.
A toddler will scream and cry until it gets its candy. If you give it candy, you can be sure you will get more screaming and crying.
The trigger is we use alcohol for everything and habits are made, memories.
You have to stop listening to a two year old.
Just get past each incident and it gets easier next time. These thoughts are not going to leave, they are part of the addiction and the only way out is to hold strong.
I had to have something I said to myself and that was, "I don't drink. No matter what."