Originally Posted by
tiredwoman 
I do know the difference, but what I fear is that I'm using these things as distractions to put a plaster on a wound that needs a lot more. And that eventually, that won't be enough.
I thought you were going to AA and looking for therapy?
One day at a time.
Life isn't "fixed" you just learn to manage it without alcohol. You're perfectly capable of that. Trust the process.