Originally Posted by
Cosima11 
Yeah I already feel much better than I did in the first month or so, but there are still some days when it's just like holy s*** this whole actually having to feel my emotions thing is just too much.
And weirdly I seemed to have more motivation when I was drinking (although it was never consistent). For now I'm just sticking to my boring routine and hoping I'll re-gain the energy to make other positive changes this year.
yes. All of this. Thanks for posting.
Also it's an inside job. Its not something we go around talking about to people, so a lot of it is looking calm on the outside with the pain and confusion brewing on the inside.