I'm still seeking recovery (and did have a SLIP) in one night of drinking. Of course that is when I called addiction treatment centers for further treatment. But whether called relapse or slip, both scare me. I'm afraid of getting f*cked out of my mind and doing something that can't be undone. But living with that uncertainty isn't healthy either. That is where a solid plan and faith in oneself comes into play. I'm not there yet, but hope to attain that stance after rehab. I'd rather live life as life rather than being in constant fear of relapse and a return to hell. Granted, I'm still in hell currently, but I'm one that hopes to resume my normal using tools and stuff I learn from education and awareness. Frankly, fear is one of the bases of my addiction.