Yep- agree with the others, Dee especially.
Sober, my anxiety is identifiable (not co-mingled or mistaken for other things) and manageable. Drunk, no chance of that.
Getting and staying sober is the only way for me to handle life, and my emotions - good and bad.
Hope to see you on here. Lots of us can relate to what you are going through - and many of us can tell you about what it's like when we quit.